I’ve been a little down lately and today while I was driving home it finally hit me why. Graduation is in less then two weeks away. I should be graduating in two weeks! It’ll be two years on May 8th  since I earned my bachelor’s degrees and I told myself that in two years, I’ll be walking across the stage again earning my master’s degree. Well two years has arrived and I’m not graduating. 

It kills me to know that I’ve worked so hard and that now all my dreams are on hold because I had to take a semester off from school. I understand that everything happens for a reason, and that whatever God has planned for me it wasn’t meant for me to be in school right now. I know that He has being with my mom whenever possible and that if I was in school that wouldn’t be possible, but it just really sucks! 

I don’t understand why this is happening when I bend over backwards to help put other people through school. It was never a second thought for me when others needs help. When I need the help through it seems as if everything just falls apart no matter how much good karma I should have coming my way, like I can’t catch a break. I really wish someone could just explain it. 

All I want to do is finish my degree. Four classes is all I have left but yet it seems like I’m just starting my degree. I can only hope that things get better over the summer so I can go back to school in the fall and finally finish my degree. I hate not being in school!