It’s official! After practically living there already, I’m officially moving in with Alex next month. I couldn’t be happier! I love spending time with him and I especially love waking up to him every morning. He is my partner in life and I know that things are going to be great this time.
I have come to accept that I can’t control everything in my life, but I can control how happy I am with things occurring in my life. Alex is and has been the one person that makes me the happiest in the world. Although we have our ups and downs like any couple, I know that we have a strong bond that is indescribable and unbreakable because our love for each other is so deep.
My problem now other then knowing what to do with all of my stuff, is telling my hermana that I’m moving out and that she needs to find her own place to live. I feel like she may already know because in the five months that we have been renting our place I have spent 13 nights there. It would be zero but Alex had to study and I respect that. I just feel like we were so close but when we moved everything changed! She’s always with someone else and I understand that because I’m not around, but we don’t talk and if we do its really short and uncomfortable.
I’m just ready for my new life to start wherever Alex and I go after graduation, and I feel like Susy and I were once on the same page, but we aren’t anymore. We two are growing and changing and going in different directions right now. I thought we were going to go everywhere together, but things change. I just don’t want to lose her as a friend because I do love. I feel like with everything going on in my life I have been a bad friend to her and that kills me inside. I feel bad for shutting her out when I found out about my mom, but that’s my way of dealing with it. I only hope that she understands me and where I’m coming from.
All I can do is look to the future and see what it holds with Alex and I.